The young women of the mega girl group cover Billboard magazine‘s latest issue and open up about everything they love about being the singers of hit songs such as “Work From Home” and “Worth It.” But for every pro, there are several cons. It turns out, much to the surprise of many, that Camila Cabello, Normani Kordei, Dinah-Jane Hansen, Ally Brooke Hernandez and Lauren Jauregui aren’t happy while on the road.
When asked about the highs and lows of their rise to fame, Cabello explains her lowest point led to her highest one. “I was having terrible anxiety, nonstop. My heart would beat really fast the whole day. Two hours after I woke up, I’d need a nap because my body was so hyperactive. It was so eff — sorry, but it was so f–ked up,” she says. “I was scared of what would happen to me, of the things my brain might tell me. I realized the stuff I thought was important isn’t worth my health. Now I write in a diary every day, work out and meditate.”
For the four other members, Hernandez has become the rock of the group. Secure and strong, Hernandez often provides an ear to those who need it, but even she has her moments. She hints to the magazine that she has suffered from “awful mental health situations” and “pain on a lot of levels.”
“They sell you this present of rainbows and butterflies, and as a 16-year-old that’s what I bought. It’s why I did X Factor and why I ended up in a group. But then you’re working so hard, so young,” she spills. “[Meanwhile] my friends are in college, telling me about their days and what they’re studying. You’re having to put on a smile on a red carpet. It’s like, ‘Who am I? Am I for myself or for this?'”
Ever since the five members left X Factor and started touring internationally, they’ve all experienced moments when they recollect their life before music and fame. Sadly, each starlet has experienced grief while on the road and without the ability to turn to her family.
“I love touring, but the schedule traumatized me,” admits Hansen. “I was like, ‘What kind of job are we doing?’ I watched my great-grandmother be buried on FaceTime. We’re all so family-oriented, and we’ve all lost people on the road.”
Despite it all, however, they know they can always turn to each other when need be. Legendary music producer L.A. Reid chalks it up to their “sisterhood.”